I usually don't talk about how I feel, because it does not change anything, I press on with God’s help daily, for He is my strength and shield and I am always relying on Him and asking for His help.
If I stopped and thought about all the things going on with my health, I would not want to move forward I would be depressed and non-functional.
By the grace of God, I am not.
I understand that God is sovereign over every part of my life, every heartbeat, every breath, and I surrender each one to Him, this is not a battle of the flesh but a spiritual battle, and in Christ, I have victory over all things.
Our spiritual needs far out way our physical needs, yet we pray more for the physical instead of the spiritual, our battle is not physical it is spiritual.
The list of things that are wrong with my health is rather large, I have 20 Doctors and this year I will have had 55 Doctor appointments and 2 weeks in the hospital, more importantly, I have 1 God and He is my Lord and Savior.
Here is a partial list of my health issues.
Gums bleed and receding
Polyneuropathy in legs & feet, arms, and hands,
Both legs numb
Legs/back/arms/hands/face burning, cold, numb like setting in the snow for a while
Left-hand twitch/ tremors
Electrical shooting pains in both legs
I am always tired, weak, body shuts down.
Joints hurt, swollen fingers.
Drop things constantly
Fingers are shaky at times can't pick anything up
Voice is getting weaker, ears are always waxy and runny
Elevated cancer markers in my blood
Auto Immune disease that attacks my muscles and bones.
This is only a partial list, I don’t put this out there for any other reason than to say this.
On my own, If I dwell on these things I would be mentally and spiritually crippled, but in Christ I am strong, and He gives me the strength daily to do what He has called me to do.
i would not trade one second of my life for peefecr health or riches, for in Christ I am satisfied and complete.
I am no different than others who suffer from Chronic sickness, I just choose to follow Christ no matter what.
God’s word says this:
“I don’t say this out of need, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I find myself. I know both how to make do with little, and I know how to make do with a lot. In any and all circumstances I have learned the secret of being content — whether well fed or hungry, whether in abundance or in need. I am able to do all things through him who strengthens me.”Philippians 4:11-13 CSB
“Finally, be strengthened by the Lord and by his vast strength. Put on the full armor of God so that you can stand against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers of this darkness, against evil, spiritual forces in the heavens. For this reason take up the full armor of God, so that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having prepared everything, to take your stand. Stand, therefore, with truth like a belt around your waist, righteousness like armor on your chest, and your feet sandaled with readiness for the gospel of peace. In every situation take up the shield of faith with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit — which is the word of God. Pray at all times in the Spirit with every prayer and request, and stay alert with all perseverance and intercession for all the saints. Pray also for me, that the message may be given to me when I open my mouth to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel. For this I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I might be bold enough to speak about it as I should.”
Ephesians 6:10-20 CSB
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