The place my soul longs to be is in the physical presence of my LORD. To bow before Him and worship Him with all that I am, to gaze upon His majesty, to see His smile, His nail pierced hands, feet and side, to hear His voice and to know that everything is perfect because of Him, and for eternity I will be with Him, this is where I want to be.
Until then, I get to worship Him in Spirit and Truth, He walks with me daily in His word, in His direction, in His Spirit. He helps me in my reasoning, by instructing me with Love, by correcting me in grace, and by leading me in mercy. These things I need, for I am prone to wonder, and easily distracted by the things of the world.
I always feel the need to be in motion, to be doing something, I do not slow down well, I am not good at rest, or on vacation, I feel I must be busy to be productive.
I know I am wrong, but my mindset is set. God in His mercy keeps slowing me down little by little, you would think I would learn by now, but I am a slow learner.
In 2010, Crohn’s changed my life, I went from a 60 hour week plus to not being able to work at all, God changed the direction of our lives, He then put me to work pastoring and helping others part time,which is not work to me, but a blessing from Him to be in the lives of His people and grow in His grace and knowledge.
Now with the latest diagnosis of Bronchial Malletia, He is slowing me down more, which means I have to adjust to a new normal, with His help I will, I would kick and scream but I would be wore out in just a few seconds, ( ha ha).
God is amazing, He gives me the strength to press on, and He takes away the strength I have when He wants me to stop. My mornings are filled with prayer, and time in His word, but I sometimes rush through both, to be busy, when really all He wants me to do, actually all of us to do at times is sit at His feet.
Where this all began, for at His feet is where I truly want to be.
I have read the story about Martha and Mary, a hundred times if not more, I always concentrate on the part of being distracted by tasks, (and we all have task to do) and I never really thought of just sitting at the feet of Jesus, but now that God has changed my perspective, I am going to focus on sitting at His feet, listening more to His words of wisdom, grace, strength, love, mercy, direction and hope and then take on tasks as He directs me and gives me the strength to do, slowing down is not in my top ten of choices, but it is in His.
God’s word says this:
“While they were traveling, he entered a village, and a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. She had a sister named Mary, who also sat at the Lord’s feet and was listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by her many tasks, and she came up and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to serve alone? So tell her to give me a hand.” The Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has made the right choice, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:38-42 CSB
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