I have to say it was surreal like time stood still and it took me back a step as I processed the information my oncologist just gave me, I have Myelodysplastic Syndromes, and my options and time are very limited.
Now I know these things are not in my hands, this is in God's hands, I truly believe there is a time to be born and a time to die and God has determined both.
While my Doctors believe my medical options are limited, I know all of my hope is in Christ, I believe He has already healed me and I praise Him for His healing hands and power.
I know beyond a shadow of a doubt I am the most blessed man on this earth, because of Jesus, He has given me so much grace and mercy, I deserved none of it, none of Him but He has given me all of Him.
As I drove home from the hospital I knew I could die in an automobile accident and not have any time to say goodbye to family and friends as so many do daily, but here again, God's grace carried me home, I do not fear death, I am ready the day the Lord calls me home, but I love my life, everything about my life and I truly feel my race is not over yet.
I don't know the day I will leave this world, neither do my Doctors, only God has that knowledge, my prayer is Jesus comes soon and takes us all home together, I am ready.
I do know that every day I get I will live for the glory of the Lord, I will ask for His help to love my family more, laugh more with them, live in each moment, and rejoice in each breath that I can, doing all I can in His strength, grace, and mercy.
I can't look back even though I am tempted too, I could write novels on regrets, but I press on in God's love, mercy, and grace praying He wipes away all the bad memories, tears, and sorrow.
We are created to live by faith, not in fear, as a child of God nothing can separate us from the love of Jesus, Jesus defeated the world, sin, death, and the grave, He can handle what comes our way, He says come to me all that are weary and I will give you rest.
This I know I am resting in Him now and I will be with Him for eternity, I am His and He is mine.
What is keeping you from living? Health, marital, financial, problems, these things are only temporary never let the temporary get in the way of eternity, resolve in your heart that you follow, and serve Jesus, no matter what!
God's word says this.
“At that time Jesus said, “I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and intelligent and revealed them to infants. Yes, Father, because this was your good pleasure. All things have been entrusted to me by my Father. No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and anyone to whom the Son desires to reveal him. “Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take up my yoke and learn from me, because I am lowly and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”Matthew 11:25-30 CSB
“Truly I tell you, anyone who hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not come under judgment but has passed from death to life. “Truly I tell you, an hour is coming, and is now here, when the dead will hear the voice of the Son of God, and those who hear will live. For just as the Father has life in himself, so also he has granted to the Son to have life in himself. And he has granted him the right to pass judgment, because he is the Son of Man.” John 5:24-27 CSB
“So the sisters sent a message to him: “Lord, the one you love is sick.” When Jesus heard it, he said, “This sickness will not end in death but is for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it.” Now Jesus loved Martha, her sister, and Lazarus. So when he heard that he was sick, he stayed two more days in the place where he was. Then after that, he said to the disciples, “Let’s go to Judea again.”..”Your brother will rise again,” Jesus told her. Martha said to him, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day.” Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me, even if he dies, will live. Everyone who lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?” “Yes, Lord,” she told him, “I believe you are the Messiah, the Son of God, who comes into the world.”
Then Jesus, deeply moved again, came to the tomb. It was a cave, and a stone was lying against it. “Remove the stone,” Jesus said. Martha, the dead man’s sister, told him, “Lord, there is already a stench because he has been dead four days.” Jesus said to her, “Didn’t I tell you that if you believed you would see the glory of God?” So they removed the stone. Then Jesus raised his eyes and said, “Father, I thank you that you heard me. I know that you always hear me, but because of the crowd standing here I said this, so that they may believe you sent me.” After he said this, he shouted with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” The dead man came out bound hand and foot with linen strips and with his face wrapped in a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Unwrap him and let him go.” John 11:3-7, 23-27, 38-44 CSB
“What, then, are we to say about these things? If God is for us, who is against us? He did not even spare his own Son but gave him up for us all. How will he not also with him grant us everything? Who can bring an accusation against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies. Who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is the one who died, but even more, has been raised; he also is at the right hand of God and intercedes for us. Who can separate us from the love of Christ? Can affliction or distress or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: Because of you we are being put to death all day long; we are counted as sheep to be slaughtered. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”Romans 8:31-39 CSB
“There is an occasion for everything, and a time for every activity under heaven: a time to give birth and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot; a time to kill and a time to heal; a time to tear down and a time to build; a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance; a time to throw stones and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace and a time to avoid embracing; a time to search and a time to count as lost; a time to keep and a time to throw away; a time to tear and a time to sew; a time to be silent and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace. What does the worker gain from his struggles? I have seen the task that God has given the children of Adam to keep them occupied. He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also put eternity in their hearts, but no one can discover the work God has done from beginning to end. ”Ecclesiastes 3:1-11 CSB
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